The last couple of days I have not been feeling 100%. I left work early yesterday and called in today because I just didn't feel right. I have zero energy, was dizzy every time I stood up (this morning at least), and yesterday all I wanted to do was bawl my eyes out when Joe wrapped his arms around me and I couldn't explain to him exactly what hurt and exactly what was wrong with me. I felt like a miserable blubbering idiot, but I was laughing too because a girl I work with told me that if I usually had a temper before I was pregnant, then I'll be a cry baby during pregnancy and so far that seems to be true! (that's how it was for her at least) And today I am watching 'A Baby Story' on TLC and seeing all the little babies on this show has been making me tear up as well. To think that sometime in December I will be going through what these women are going through is crazy to think about. I think I still haven't really gotten used to the idea that we are really having our first baby. Our lives are going to change so much. How will we adjust to it? How will our dogs and cat adjust to a little screaming, smelly, pooping, human in the house when for so long it's just been them and Joe and I? All in all I know everything will work out, because everything WILL work out. But it's still scary because this is uncharted territory for us and we have NO idea what we're doing. I've just been trying to stay hydrated and eat right and not over-do it at work or with household chores. I've been wanting to start exercising but lately I just have no energy and all I want to do when I get home from work is lay on the couch or sit in my recliner. They say you feel better when you hit the second trimester, so hopefully that's true. I am about 2 weeks away from being in my second trimester so we'll see how I feel then. Hopefully I'll have more energy and no nausea or dizziness.
We have our next visit with the doctor this coming Wednesday (5/30) and I am hoping we get another sonogram to see how much bigger little Peanut is. I also have a few questions I can't forget to ask her while we are there.
Well that's pretty much what's on my mind right now....
Friday, May 25, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
A big THANK YOU to my real friends! + 9 Weeks and counting and deleting bullies.
So I am currently 9 weeks pregnant and this nausea (morning/evening/all day sickness, what-have-you) is absolutely driving me crazy!! Being nauseous all day makes me grumpy and I really don't like being so grumpy!! Oh well. HOPEFULLY it will go away when I hit the second trimester, so 3 more weeks of this crap!! Keep your fingers crossed.
I just have a few things on my mind today. First of all, bullies need to burn in hell... *ahem* I mean, bullies are the lowest form of scum on this earth that....yeah I can't think of anything else, so they just need to burn in hell! Mwahahaha! *evil laugh* You know, those types of people that thrive on causing misery for others? Yeah, them. If you have ever dealt with such a person during your lifetime, I know your pain and sincerely hope you made it through such a situation unscathed. It's especially horrible if that person begins acting as a friend, makes you believe they've changed, then takes off their mask and surprise, surprise they haven't changed at all! They are still that same horrid little rat you had to deal with all those years ago. Wow. People never change! Yeah I recently had to delete such a rat from my list of friends on facebook. I know, I know! It's petty and ridiculous what girls get offended and fight over but seriously! I do not deserve comments that offer no support whatsoever and that also bring me down and try to make me feel like I am a terrible person dammit! If all you know of me is what I post on facebook then you are missing out because that means you do not know me at all. For those that are my actual friends, who give a REAL rats ass about me, how I feel, and what makes me happy/sad/aggravated/cranky/overjoyed/ or anything of the like, THANK YOU! You are a ray of sunshine in my day that keeps me going! Without such friends like you, this world would not be worth living in.
I won't go into details about this situation because frankly it's just not worth it, and I am a better person than that rat anyway. (I know the fact that I am calling her a rat kind of negates that statement, but eh, who's keeping score? Who cares?)
Anywho!! So yeah, that's what's on my mind tonight.
Also, my hours got cut again at work. *sadface* Instead of my being able to work 39 hours, I am only allowed a total of 32 hours per week. Part of me is really upset about this because since our first little one is due this year we really need all the extra moola we can get, but on the other hand, since I have been so terribly nauseous the last 4 weeks, I am really kind of okay with getting off work a little earlier than normal. Oh well. We will survive and make it through. God has taken care of us this long why would he let us crash a burn now? : ) I am confident that we'll be okay.
Okay, I think that's all that's on my mind tonight if you care haha.
If you are a real friend to me, once again a big THANK YOU for standing by me and up for me if the time called for it. I'll try to be as good a friend to you as you have been to me!
I just have a few things on my mind today. First of all, bullies need to burn in hell... *ahem* I mean, bullies are the lowest form of scum on this earth that....yeah I can't think of anything else, so they just need to burn in hell! Mwahahaha! *evil laugh* You know, those types of people that thrive on causing misery for others? Yeah, them. If you have ever dealt with such a person during your lifetime, I know your pain and sincerely hope you made it through such a situation unscathed. It's especially horrible if that person begins acting as a friend, makes you believe they've changed, then takes off their mask and surprise, surprise they haven't changed at all! They are still that same horrid little rat you had to deal with all those years ago. Wow. People never change! Yeah I recently had to delete such a rat from my list of friends on facebook. I know, I know! It's petty and ridiculous what girls get offended and fight over but seriously! I do not deserve comments that offer no support whatsoever and that also bring me down and try to make me feel like I am a terrible person dammit! If all you know of me is what I post on facebook then you are missing out because that means you do not know me at all. For those that are my actual friends, who give a REAL rats ass about me, how I feel, and what makes me happy/sad/aggravated/cranky/overjoyed/ or anything of the like, THANK YOU! You are a ray of sunshine in my day that keeps me going! Without such friends like you, this world would not be worth living in.
I won't go into details about this situation because frankly it's just not worth it, and I am a better person than that rat anyway. (I know the fact that I am calling her a rat kind of negates that statement, but eh, who's keeping score? Who cares?)
Anywho!! So yeah, that's what's on my mind tonight.
Also, my hours got cut again at work. *sadface* Instead of my being able to work 39 hours, I am only allowed a total of 32 hours per week. Part of me is really upset about this because since our first little one is due this year we really need all the extra moola we can get, but on the other hand, since I have been so terribly nauseous the last 4 weeks, I am really kind of okay with getting off work a little earlier than normal. Oh well. We will survive and make it through. God has taken care of us this long why would he let us crash a burn now? : ) I am confident that we'll be okay.
Okay, I think that's all that's on my mind tonight if you care haha.
If you are a real friend to me, once again a big THANK YOU for standing by me and up for me if the time called for it. I'll try to be as good a friend to you as you have been to me!
Friday, April 27, 2012
Nerves, Evening Sickness, and Dealing with Jerks.
4/25/2012-Thursday
Well as I stated in my first blog, I am still nervous about becoming a mother. Today was a long day and that twinge of fear reared it's ugly head again. While I'm stoked about our first kid coming, I am terrified at the same time because I have no idea what I'm doing! I'm sure the "motherly instinct" will kick in once Peanut is actually here, but as of right now....AAAAAHHHHH!!!! *runs away screaming*
These feelings come and go from time to time, and something reminds me of how amazing it will be to have a miniature version of Joe and myself and I get excited again. I'm sure every new mom-to-be goes through these feelings so I'll be okay, right?
Anywho! While I am trying to get over my anxious feelings, I have noticed that I usually do not get morning sickness, I know, 'yay' right? Wrong. I get evening sickness. I feel like I'm on my death bed most nights....it's not fun. But!, I can say I have yet to actually barf, yay! Haha.
Next Wednesday is our first sonogram and doctor appointment, I am beyond excited!!! I hope my nervousness will go away when I see him/her for the first time.
4/26/2012-Friday
Today I didn't get to eat breakfast so I wasn't feeling too good, therefore I was not a very "perky" person this morning. One of our more annoying customers came in, and like usual he tells me I need to smile and look happy. For those of you who know me, know that this is one of the quickest ways to really piss me off. So being the person I am, I immediately get annoyed with this guy as I tell him I'm not feeling well. He asks what that has to do with me not smiling and I'm thinking in the back of my head, uh, duh, normal people don't usually smile and are happy if they don't feel good. Then he proceeds to say, "Let me ask you something. Are you tired when you go home every day?" to which I of course answered, "Yes." Then he asked me if I knew why, and I told him yeah, because I'm pregnant. He had the nerve to say that wasn't the reason I'm tired every day after work. His theory was that since I am ALWAYS frowning, that that is actually why I'm tired. HUH???? I don't understand....? I told him that I was pretty sure it was because I'm pregnant, to which he replied, "why don't you just call in like the rest of them?". Well, duh! I can't afford to call in, I just told you I'm having a baby!!! Sheesh! THEN! He had to balls to say to me, wait for it,...."IF YOU CAN AFFORD TO HAVE A BABY, YOU CAN AFFORD TO CALL IN." Excuse me??? In what twisted world does that make sense? First of all, I'm a cashier at Lowes! What makes you think I can afford to have a baby AND call in whenever I feel a little sick?? And secondly, how freakin' rude!!! You don't talk to perfect strangers like this. You just don't. The last time this guy came in he basically said I am a grump and need to be happier because life is too short to not be happy. Yeah, yeah, I get it! You think you're better than me because I'm not perpetually happy, so sue me!!
When the guy finished shopping and came back to my register to check out, I really didn't want to hear more from him about how grumpy I was being so I just began ringing up his items, not making eye contact or saying anything. He began chatting with me like we were old friends. He asked if this was my first child, and if I was worried about becoming a mother, and then I just mumbled an answer, he told me not to worry because in HIS experience, you know what to do what the kid actually gets here. Um, how many times SIR have you been pregnant and given birth??? Anywho, so when I gave him his receipt, he said he didn't want to upset me, which I replied "too late.", and he stood there saying different things to try and get me to smile so I started laughing at him. Apparently this is my response to dicks I really want to insult, but know I can't for obvious reasons. I blandly told him to have a good day and looked away. He said he didn't want to leave with me upset with him and I was thinking, I don't care just go away. Then when he saw me laughing at him he said I look better with a smile on my face, and then asked, "You're still going to be upset with me after I leave aren't you?". I just flatly said, "Yup! Now have a nice day."
Omg! Some people have such nerve!! Why do you want to be such an ass to someone you don't even know? What if someone I love had recently died and THAT'S why I wasn't smiling and happy like he wanted me to be?? I just don't understand some people.
Anywho, that was the last couple of days for me. Thank God it's Friday and I'm off for the next 2 days!!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Life as a pregnant chick :P
I just turned 24, and yes I know that is young to be starting a family already, some would say, but hey, we are married and excited to meet our first little bundle of joy!
When I saw those two pink lines on 4/14/2012, my whole body began to shake as I tried to dial my husband's phone number to tell him the news. I just couldn't wait, I had to tell him right then.
Since we've known about our little "peanut", life has been interesting. He/she is the first thing on my mind in the morning as I dutifully take my prenatal vitamin, and the last thing on my mind as we are crawling into bed. Well, truth be told, he/she has been on my mind pretty much non-stop since we found out about them!! My nervousness has diminished a lot, and my excitement has taken over. When I see how excited Joe is about becoming a father, it fills me with such happiness that I cannot begin to describe.
When our news was well, new, I had such fears about not being able to be the mother this little one needs and deserves. To tell the truth, that still scares me a bit. I have no idea what to expect and how we'll handle it, but I know we will be able to. We're a strong team, Joe & I, and we'll only get stronger as time goes on.
As any newly expectant mother, I of course purchased the infamous book - "What to expect when you're expecting". It's quite informative, and a lot of the information I already had an idea of what to expect from the times I have researched the subject (even before I became pregnant). However, until you actually are, those symptoms don't really mean anything to you. This may all be a bit TMI but I don't care, this is my blog, and you don't have to read it if you don't want to; but when they are talking about the soreness of your "ladies", they mean you will be SO SORE that if anything even looks like it's going to touch them you shy away from it as quickly as possible, ESPECIALLY when you take off the 'over-the-shoulder-boulder-holder'! Also, it says for the first few weeks in early pregnancy, you will have menstrual-like cramping going on. No problem right? Wrong. When these cramps hit you, they are often so horrible that you freak out (as I have many times already) and start worrying yourself sick about "is little peanut okay in there??", and you run to the bathroom to make sure you see nothing RED, then call your doctor just to ease your mind about everything. As Joe says it: "Don't be worried, Peanut's just restless.", I love him lol.
I've noticed the last couple of days, I've been much less crampy and feeling more normal. So normal in fact, that I don't really feel pregnant, or at times I kind of forget that I am, but I am sure that Peanut's still in there, he/she's just settled down and has made itself at home. After all, they've got 8 more months to go before they will be here, so it might as well get comfortable! Don't get me wrong, I still get uncomfortable at times, and that's sort of nice, because it reminds me that I am indeed starting out on a new path in my life, but I am very thankful it's not been as bad as when I first found out.
So everyone knows that when you are pregnant, you pee a lot, but not everyone realizes that that actually starts off right away, and not just when you are further along. Trust me!! I've been running to the bathroom about every thirty minutes to an hour for the last couple of days! I'm sure that will get annoying soon, but for right now it's not that bad.
Overall, SO FAR, I am enjoying being pregnant and dreaming of what our kid's going to look like, act like, and how motherhood will be. That may, and probably will change the further down the road I get but for now there's only pure excitement for the future!
When I saw those two pink lines on 4/14/2012, my whole body began to shake as I tried to dial my husband's phone number to tell him the news. I just couldn't wait, I had to tell him right then.
Since we've known about our little "peanut", life has been interesting. He/she is the first thing on my mind in the morning as I dutifully take my prenatal vitamin, and the last thing on my mind as we are crawling into bed. Well, truth be told, he/she has been on my mind pretty much non-stop since we found out about them!! My nervousness has diminished a lot, and my excitement has taken over. When I see how excited Joe is about becoming a father, it fills me with such happiness that I cannot begin to describe.
When our news was well, new, I had such fears about not being able to be the mother this little one needs and deserves. To tell the truth, that still scares me a bit. I have no idea what to expect and how we'll handle it, but I know we will be able to. We're a strong team, Joe & I, and we'll only get stronger as time goes on.
As any newly expectant mother, I of course purchased the infamous book - "What to expect when you're expecting". It's quite informative, and a lot of the information I already had an idea of what to expect from the times I have researched the subject (even before I became pregnant). However, until you actually are, those symptoms don't really mean anything to you. This may all be a bit TMI but I don't care, this is my blog, and you don't have to read it if you don't want to; but when they are talking about the soreness of your "ladies", they mean you will be SO SORE that if anything even looks like it's going to touch them you shy away from it as quickly as possible, ESPECIALLY when you take off the 'over-the-shoulder-boulder-holder'! Also, it says for the first few weeks in early pregnancy, you will have menstrual-like cramping going on. No problem right? Wrong. When these cramps hit you, they are often so horrible that you freak out (as I have many times already) and start worrying yourself sick about "is little peanut okay in there??", and you run to the bathroom to make sure you see nothing RED, then call your doctor just to ease your mind about everything. As Joe says it: "Don't be worried, Peanut's just restless.", I love him lol.
I've noticed the last couple of days, I've been much less crampy and feeling more normal. So normal in fact, that I don't really feel pregnant, or at times I kind of forget that I am, but I am sure that Peanut's still in there, he/she's just settled down and has made itself at home. After all, they've got 8 more months to go before they will be here, so it might as well get comfortable! Don't get me wrong, I still get uncomfortable at times, and that's sort of nice, because it reminds me that I am indeed starting out on a new path in my life, but I am very thankful it's not been as bad as when I first found out.
So everyone knows that when you are pregnant, you pee a lot, but not everyone realizes that that actually starts off right away, and not just when you are further along. Trust me!! I've been running to the bathroom about every thirty minutes to an hour for the last couple of days! I'm sure that will get annoying soon, but for right now it's not that bad.
Overall, SO FAR, I am enjoying being pregnant and dreaming of what our kid's going to look like, act like, and how motherhood will be. That may, and probably will change the further down the road I get but for now there's only pure excitement for the future!
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